Thursday, March 20, 2008
| hai. i cant believe wat's happening. but i think tht im pms-ing. thts wat jamin thinks so. this is the first time im actually pms-ing. n for a moment i thought i could get over the insecure feeling i had w hr. but apparently no. i dunno wats with me. i dont like myself. i feel so horrible. its like. i trust the both of them. but. its just tht. ahhhh i cant control myself. i know what is right but i cant help from being unhappy. its like. it just feels like a thousand butterflies are flying in my tummy n im so nervous. my heart had been so uncomfortable....... he's not replying me coz he's talking to val. just like how he hang me to call val n chat. m i really tht horrible? he shouldnt even have given me any false hope in the first place. grrrr. now im like some kinda idiot. i dont like myself!! i cant believe it.. fine. i should cool down. i should just forget it n kan kai dian. i should. ok lets talk abt some other stuff. =) i dont like to be emo emo. ok. sports day.ahh its not really happy anyway. in fact. its sad. it was quite a gd day. until the later part. all i did was skipping n the tele games. which :( im vr guilty over. i wanted to join tht agility thingy. its actually easy. but i didnt take up the courage n join. man! i should have. i want a medal!! lol. anyway. ya thts something i liked but didnt join. val n brandada joined floor ball. Aefy n Aswath were simply Awesome!! haha lol. they are so good! n brenda too! i love her. haha. she saved many many balls. and ya. win was quite upset over coz. ya....... i joined the tele match. which seriously i shouldnt. i should have given my place to dexing. firstly, it was my fault not to reassure with li sin n form my own team. n caused Dexing not being able to play. it was so unfair for him. :( n also. the ball is cursed. or it didnt like me. it just dont want to fly towards the cans. its flew in all directions n i spend half the time running after it. so i caused my team to lose. although sultan n aefy were great. they could have won. n got gold. but. its me.. =(. man. i have next yr!! i know how to throe the ball now. so. ya hopefully i can join again next year!! =) so ya, a moody day for me. but i'll be happy tomorrow. i promise!! =) vii |
what we could have been, 6:16 AM.
