Tuesday, November 18, 2008
i am sick and tired of my life. sorry i really need to vent before i go crazy.. really.
here i am going to NUS everyday early in the morning. work in the lab n stand till my knee hurts n go home at night. everyday. its true i learnt alot. which im really happy about. i love science. but after i screwed this experiment of 1 week of hard work. i feel different. n seriously. its really tiring. i cant even sleep properly. i have no time for myself. I DIDNT SKIP CHOIR ON PURPOSE. OK?
im already tired over the attachment n here it is. RESPONSIBILITY. my CCA, yes i agree tht i might be irresponsible not going in for choir for 2 weeks. at the time we're about to go to HK. but my attachment was confirmed so long ago n i clearly told her tht i'll be gone for 2 weeks. just take it as im overseas. n she said ok?!
n now. becoz she cant handle it or whatsoever. she's pushing all the blames n responsibilities to me. whatever! i dont care. i dont even bother explaining nor talking to ppl. she complains tht she has no one to talk to. but she didnt even try. n when miss khor speaks loudly its not called scolding. thts just the way she speaks. she've been like tht since im P2. i know everyone hates me now. but im too tired. im sorry ppl. its not like im doing it on purpose. its not like im pon-ing choir. its different.
if it wasnt me. will ppl get so worked up? if they were to just take it as im overseas? what does it mean tht vanessa is in charge of choir this week? when vanessa is officially on lab attachment then. i understand how stressful life can get sometimes. i get stressed out too ok? we're all the same. im trying my best to do my part. im tyring my freaking best to learn up the songs on my own. so tht i wont be tht lost when i get back.
i know i sound really bad now. but i dont care. i am tired of making ppl not dislike me. i just wanna rest. i am sick of homework sick of explaining sick of telling ppl its not my fault im sorry n whatsoever....
i need to go back to hong kong. why am i still here? im really sorry for being such a bitch tonight. i just needed to blast. haha. sorry about tht. but is there anyone out there who understands me? coz im really miserable now.
here i am going to NUS everyday early in the morning. work in the lab n stand till my knee hurts n go home at night. everyday. its true i learnt alot. which im really happy about. i love science. but after i screwed this experiment of 1 week of hard work. i feel different. n seriously. its really tiring. i cant even sleep properly. i have no time for myself. I DIDNT SKIP CHOIR ON PURPOSE. OK?
im already tired over the attachment n here it is. RESPONSIBILITY. my CCA, yes i agree tht i might be irresponsible not going in for choir for 2 weeks. at the time we're about to go to HK. but my attachment was confirmed so long ago n i clearly told her tht i'll be gone for 2 weeks. just take it as im overseas. n she said ok?!
n now. becoz she cant handle it or whatsoever. she's pushing all the blames n responsibilities to me. whatever! i dont care. i dont even bother explaining nor talking to ppl. she complains tht she has no one to talk to. but she didnt even try. n when miss khor speaks loudly its not called scolding. thts just the way she speaks. she've been like tht since im P2. i know everyone hates me now. but im too tired. im sorry ppl. its not like im doing it on purpose. its not like im pon-ing choir. its different.
if it wasnt me. will ppl get so worked up? if they were to just take it as im overseas? what does it mean tht vanessa is in charge of choir this week? when vanessa is officially on lab attachment then. i understand how stressful life can get sometimes. i get stressed out too ok? we're all the same. im trying my best to do my part. im tyring my freaking best to learn up the songs on my own. so tht i wont be tht lost when i get back.
i know i sound really bad now. but i dont care. i am tired of making ppl not dislike me. i just wanna rest. i am sick of homework sick of explaining sick of telling ppl its not my fault im sorry n whatsoever....
i need to go back to hong kong. why am i still here? im really sorry for being such a bitch tonight. i just needed to blast. haha. sorry about tht. but is there anyone out there who understands me? coz im really miserable now.
what we could have been, 5:51 AM.
